it was always about being obedient

it was always about being obedient
and as obedience took over her life
gradually
un-invited
un-welcome
it wasn’t her life she was living
not anymore
she was somebody else

and then it became two lives
two contrasting lives
in one body
she must’ve looked weird
to those watchful judging eyes
she must’ve walked funny
being pulled apart
from herself

even when the autumn air
was filled
with the fragrance
of love
she felt the harsh winter
freeze
her heart and bones
two lives becoming one lifeless being